“Fierce Dream”

I literally dreamt this painting a couple of nights ago. I don’t know why but I did. I kid you not, this is by my own creative skill. This is pastel on canvas. I “pastelled” this! Well, digitally anyway. My first go at art and I feel pretty accomplished. I hope you guys like it as much as I do.

Easter Sunday – The Bloody Truth


Yesterday, my youth pastor wanted to talk about Jesus in lieu of Easter Sunday. What he had to say was to me eye-opening and thought-provoking. He wanted to talk about the death of Jesus and what he actually went through during the Crucifixion. My pastor wanted to say something different than what most preachers preach about what happened in the Bible during what we call Easter. Too many preachers and members of church congregations paint a pretty picture when they talk about the death of Jesus. This is what I got from my pastor’ s message:

The crucifixion was not a pretty picture. A lot of people don’t realize it but… Jesus death was much more ugly and horrific and terrible than you can imagine. The death of Jesus was tons more gory and disturbing than any of our horror films. I don’t want you guys to think of Jesus’ death as a horror movie but I want to make a point here. Yes, Jesus did come down to earth to abolish sin and death and bring life and the gospel to all but way too many people paint the death of Jesus like some beautiful fresco and leave out the truth about the suffering of the Son and Man and the reality of what a sinless man really went through.

The message I want to get across here is that too many people take Jesus’ sacrifice for granted and they ignore the reality and the gravity of Jesus’ suffering for us here on earth.

The gospel message we preach today isn’t the one that the apostles preached approximately two thousand years ago. Nowadays, it’s full of what people aren’t afraid to hear or let their children know. Some people might say that it’s changed but that is simply a bunch of BS. The fact of the matter is that the sermon preachers give on Easter Sunday is a “safe” gospel and the gospel that is preached in the Bible is an explicit one.

Preachers, if you are guilty of preaching a safe gospel then you are guilty of hiding the truth from your congregation and your guests.

Doesn’t it seem like, in todays world, people are more afraid of the truth than they are of being lied to and deceived? I wish people would start being brave enough to hear the truth and begin opening their eyes to the very thing that can save them from their cycle of sin. That’s not to say that you won’t still sin. We are still fallible creatures.

Anyway, all I’m saying is that people need to stop treating Jesus’ death and suffering like a traditional, everyday Easter Sunday sermon and start treating like what it really is: Jesus, the Son of God, came into the world to live a sinless life as a sinless man to be a model for what our lives should look like and die on a cross for something he didn’t do just to save us from death and the grave.

When Jesus was executed, he was an innocent man. The Jews went to get Jesus and take him to put Him on trial in a Jewish court to “prove” that he was a heretic, a blasphemer, a false prophet, etc. Jesus was accused of things he did not do. He was put on trial by the very people who hated Him. And He was executed for nothing. Think about that. A man who had never done anything wrong was falsely accused of doing wrong against God. In addition to this, He was ordered executed by Pilate who himself admitted that Jesus didn’t do anything wrong. Jesus went through all this crap so that we could have what Adam and Eve had before the Fall.

Anyway, guys lets preach the Good News on Easter Sunday and lead others to salvation by opening eyes to the reality of what Jesus suffered through for us so that we could have life and not death, righteousness and not sin.

God bless all of you on Easter Sunday and bless others with the Good News.


“For God so loved the world

that He gave His one and only Son

so that who ever believes in Him will not perish

but have everlasting life.” – John 3:16

Daily Prompt – She Drives Me Crazy


Excessive public profanity is totally uncalled for. Have you ever been in the grocery store, a food court, or community event and heard someone dropping the F-bomb after every other word in a conversation or cussing the cashier out because of some minor mistake or misunderstanding? I have. I don’t care if people use profane language around me as long as they don’t go overboard. Excessive profanity is my pet peeve.

Profanity has been in every language since creation. People use bad language for many different reasons. Some use profanity in exclamations, others use it to express feeling, and still some use it to make a point. Profanity is usually looked down upon but it is practically a social norm. You hear the people around use profanity almost every day.

There are also people who see profanity as a shameful use of language. They see it as unprofessional and inappropriate. My parents and grandparents are some of those people. I don’t like bad language but I try not to mind it when others use it.

Despite my not minding profanity out of others mouths I do hate it when people abuse the unspoken profane word limit. When I hear someone use a “bad” word a few times it’s okay but as soon as they start shooting off cuss words I get annoyed.

When I’m in a situation where I’m near someone that is abusing their unspoken cuss word limit I think to myself “person, shut up.” Nobody needs to hear how angry or hyped-up you are about something and it needs to stop. Really, the only thing we can do about excessive profanity is to tell the people that use profane language all the time how stupid and rude they are when they drop the F-bomb after every other word.

He Steers My Ship


My God is my Captain

He steers the ship of my soul

He is my Compass

Where He points, I go


My God is the North Star

He guides me

When I look to Him

My direction, I see


The Holy Spirit in the Wind

He blows in my sails

He is my Anchor

I cannot be tossed by the gale


The Holy Spirit is the Sea

He keeps me afloat

I can never sink

In Him, I am an unsinkable boat


“A person plans his course, but the Lord directs his steps.” Proverbs 16:9 NET

The Dust In His Wind


The Holy Spirit blows

I am the dust in His holy wind

His breeze guides me

I go where He goes


The Holy Spirit blows

I am the leaf in His beautiful breeze

With every gust

My path He leads


The Holy Spirit blows

I am the sail in His glorious squall

His gale drives my ship

I go where his wind falls


“For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God” – Romans 8:14 AMP

The Liebster Award- I Got Nominated!

I must thank the dear soul that authors a very unique blog. Bless you Just Be V for nominating me for the Liebster Award. It is an honor. I am humbled to receive this nomination and I am so excited because I just started blogging about a month ago.

From what I have gathered the Liebster Award is an award for up and coming bloggers like myself and those that have been nominated for it recently. “Liebster” is a German word that basically means “favorite”. The award is almost like a chain letter. When you get it you’re supposed to send it to the next person or whatever. Here are the rules for the award:

1. Thank your nominator.

2. Answer the 11 questions given to you.

3. Nominate 11 other blogs with less than 500 followers.

4. Post 11 questions for your nominees to answer.

5. Tag your nominees & post a comment on their blog to let them know you nominated them.

I want to follow the rules so here are the questions I’m supposed to answer:

1. What was the first book you remember reading?

I don’t remember that but I can tell one of the best books I’ve read. It’s called “Illusion” by Frank Peretti. It really captures your heart and pulls you in. It is very compelling and interesting. If you really dive into the story you will experience it firsthand with the characters. The story is most suspenseful and Frank Peretti really knows how to capture your mind with vivid imagery and well developed characters and he imprisons every emotion you take pleasure in. You should really check it out.

2. What was the first thing you can remember writing?

The earliest memory of me writing that I can recall is writing a song. I have know idea what it was about or why I wrote it. That was back when I sucked at writing. I don’t think I ever finished it but then again I was only like eight years old so it figures.

3. Who is your soul model?

Jesus. I love the Lord with all my heart, mind, and soul. He is my passion and my dear Savior. I pray that many will one day know Him like I do.

4. What do you do to inspire you?

Wow, that’s a hard one! Um, I really don’t do much to get inspired. I just think a lot. When I have a really thoughtful thought I just write about. I guess that’s why we write, just thoughts that you desire to put on paper.

5. Where do you write?

Mostly I just write on my blog. When I want to do creative writing I just write in my draft notebook and then copy the final draft into my journal.

6. What is at the top of your current bucket list?

I don’t have one. I guess now’s the time to think of one. The first thing I can think of is to travel the world and photo-journal where I go. I want to do photography and photograph the grand images that await my eye and my camera.

7.  Where is the most beautiful place you have visited?

I’d have to say West and Central Texas. I live in the Lone Star state and traveled to Brownwood, TX. On my way there with my dad and two of my sisters I saw the most beautiful scenery. You can see miles of West Texas countryside. It’s just breathtaking.

8. What are you most afraid of?

I’d like to say I don’t have fear but then I’d be lying so I guess I better tell you. My greatest fear is that one day someone will find out all the things that I’ve done that I am most ashamed of. I couldn’t bear the thought of anyone but God knowing my sins.

9.  What movie most inspires you?

There’s another difficult one. Off the top of my head I’ve got to say the recent “Saving Mr. Banks”. I loved that movie. It really inspired me to be more outgoing. I’m not exactly one who is drawn to showing who I am inside but I guess that’s what my writing does.

10.  What do you think would make the world a better place?

Yet another hard question. I know there are people out there that hate him and think he is the worst person to ever walk the Earth but I am going to have to go with my Savior Christ Jesus. If people understood they would agree with me but Jesus is the best thing that ever happened to me and He would capture your heart to. Finding God is like finding your true love. Actually that’s exactly what it is. I hope you find Him. Regardless of what you think of the Lord He will always be thinking of you. You are His creation and He adores you and takes pride in you.

11.  What do you believe in?

I believe in God and all that He is and all that is in Him regardless of what you think those things are because I know Him better. I don’t mean this to be offensive. I hope and pray that you would know Him like I do.

Here are my question for my nominees who will appear below these question. Good luck!

1. If you were shipwrecked on an island and you could pick someone to have with you on the island who would it be? Name and relationship with your answer and why you picked that person.

2. What kind of music really moves you? Singer? Song?

3. What do you like to write most?

4. Who is your favorite author and what book of theirs do you like most?

5. How did you become a blogger?

6. If you were to die in one week and had to write your last blog post what would it be about? What would you title it? How long would it be?

7. What is something about someone you know that you absolutely hate?

8. Dogs or cats? Why?

9. What would you name your kid if you had one?

10. How many times has writer’s block pained you and what gave you the inspiration that saved you?

11. What annoys you more, when someone says ‘like’ after every sentence or someone who has to insert profanity into every sentence that comes out of their mouth?

Here are my nominees:

Allison Finley 

Ayla Caitlyn Photography



Pie On The Windowsill

Let’s Talk

The Unappreciated Pastor

a hundred affections

A Refreshing Perspective

Faith Hope and Love

Lion Heart

An Up-chucking Of Words- I Can’t Think Of Anything To Write

I know it’s been about two weeks since I’ve posted so I’m just going to type what ever comes to mind. Quite honestly, I have been having a hard time getting inspired. I guess I have a bit of a case of infamous writer’s block. I absolutely HATE writer’s block. Writer’s block is torture for the aspiring writer, like me, and the seasoned writer. When I try to write when I’ve hit writer’s block it’s like trying to hack into someone’s computer, I just can’t do it. It takes a bout of inspiration just to put my fingers on the keys or pick up my pencil. Sometimes I just have to put my tablet or pencil and paper away and go do something else. Actually I take it back. I don’t have writer’s block. I’m just thinking too hard. 

Recently, I have discovered the practice of free writing. Free writing is probably the best way to practice writing and one of the best ways to keep inspired. I have been trying to get into the practice of free writing. It’s kind of hard to keep doing, at least for me. I’m not very responsible with some things. It almost makes me wonder how I keep my grades where they are. 

I guess this post is a random free write. I’m just writing whatever. Or maybe I’m just desperate to write.

I think I’m through rambling now. I know this a short post so if this end is a little abrupt please forgive my writing skill.

Let God Be First In All You Do


I find it astonishing that so many of us Christians try to find direction in our lives and it seems as though we are looking in all of the wrong places but we can’t seem to get our head around the fact that God is the one we should be going to. We should be going to God for every single thing in our lives. After all, as I said in my last post, our relationship with Him is just like the relationship a husband and wife have with each other. In a marriage you should go to your spouse for any support you need. It’s the exact same thing with God. And usually when you put your spouse first your marriage remains steady (although not all the time), just like when you put God first everything turns out just fine or even better.

Putting God first is like studying for a test, it’s hard but in the end the studying pays off and you pass your test. When we put God first it’s difficult. We want to rely upon our own understanding of where we need to be but when we put God first He puts us right where He wants us.

Putting God first is trust. We are trusting God when we put Him first. God is a trustworthy God. When you rely on Him for your needs he will never let you down. Psalm 9:10 says, “Those who know your name trust in you, for you, O Lord, do not abandon those who search for you.” God will never forsake those who trust in Him.

So, when you need direction to where He wants you put Him first. God is the only one who knows where He wants you. You can’t figure it out on your own. And remember, what you need does not always come quickly. When you need something from God it comes on His timing which can be immediately or in several years.

“But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33 ESV

God Owns The Universe Yet Still He Loves YOU

Imagine yourself among all of God’s creation. It’s just you and the stars and the galaxies and every celestial body along with a cedar, an oak, and every imaginable kind of tree and next to and all around you are every kind of beautiful, majestic animal. You and all of the creation around you are before God Almighty. You’re in awe of God’s glory and power and you can barely find words. Then in all of the overwhelming stimuli flooding your brain a question arises. It’s a very simple question. It is not hard to answer, but it is probably the most powerful question anyone could ask themselves. Does God love me?

Behind the closed door of the privacy of your thoughts God hears your question. All of a sudden you hear the most loving voice. The voice is soft and quiet and its spirit is sweet. The words that it speaks capture your heart. Then the voice is silent. You kneel, both knees touching the floor because you cannot hold yourself up. Overwhelmed with emotion, tears flooding your eyes, you begin to take in the words that were spoken to you. Then something within you tells you that voice was God and all of your emotions flow forth with intensity and spill over in a torrent of tears of joy and disbelief and laughter and smiles.


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Pocket Change – A Poem About Coins And Poverty


This is a free verse poem I wrote about the many impoverished souls in the world. Some have little to no money whatsoever. Others live on just several dollars a day. I hope you all like it, it’s my very first creative writing piece ever.

Pocket Change

Silver nickels, wheat pennies

From the mint to the pockets

Of poverty’s wounded prey and life’s fortunate victors

You journey from rich pocket to needy

Though you were forsaken by your wealthy allies

The threadbare pockets of the impoverished

Stirred you to bleeding heartache

You suffer with the souls who desperately cling to you

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They lay in bed at night clutching you

Wrestling with that desperate, hopeful thought

Of finally exchanging you for their last possible meal

And hoping against hope that they will see you again

Ultimately, the ill-fated time comes

You rest in the clerks money-drawer,

Grieving, weeping over all you’ve seen

Fearing your journey may never end

Alas, your journey goes on, infinite, unending

The path you travel never ends

You will migrate from well-to-do pocket to empty pocket

Bound to cycle of anxiety and helplessness

“Then Jesus turned to his disciples and said, “God blesses you who are poor, for the Kingdom of God is yours. God blesses you who are hungry now, for you will be satisfied. God blesses you who weep now, for in due time you will laugh.” Luke 6:20-21

The First Brainchild Of Many Yet To Come


This is the first of many of my thoughts I will put in black and white. I hope and pray that we can all relish those thoughts which I believe many of us think. At some point or another we will all think a thought that somebody else has thought as well. It’s kind of amazing in its own little way. I hope we can all share in these brain-children in the near and distant future. I’m Brennen and this is Ponderings Of A Youth.

“Your thoughts—how rare, how beautiful!
God, I’ll never comprehend them!
I couldn’t even begin to count them—
any more than I could count the sand of the sea.” Psalm 139:17-18 MSG